Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Do the Next Thing

I've been feeling crappy for weeks now. No energy. Headaches every day. Can't eat much. Feeling nauseated without being preggers. Can't lose weight no matter what I do. Can't concentrate. It pretty much sucks. I know there are people who have it way worse than me, so I really shouldn't be complaining. And I don't think I am. I'm just saying that something isn't right inside this ole body of mine. I'm getting tests and I am just praying that they show something. We shall see.

I'm trying to finish today strong. Laundry calls. School starts next week so I need to spend some time planning our ridiculously ambitious lessons. At least dinner is already made. All I want to do is lie down and watch MI-5, my new obsession.... oh, AND write a post about my appreciation for the pastey-white Englishman.

But I'm a wife and a mom. I can get away with slowing down a little, but I can't stop entirely if, for no other reason than I don't want a bigger mess to clean up when I'm better. The most I can do is beg for God's mercy and put one foot in front of the other.

What is that Elizabeth Elliot quote? "Do the next thing." This shall be my mantra for the rest of the day.


  1. Genevieve,

    I just read your blog, well, most of it anyhow, and am struck by how many things we have in common. There are some very obvious differences (I was never Presbyterian), but otherwise...

    I was diagnosed with depression formally in college. I was on and off different meds for years without much success (and some spectacular failures). I've been on a good one for two years now and know what it's like to feel 'normal'. It's a glorious thing. I also have had a struggle with weight: I'm at least thirty pounds overweight right now although I'm working on it (sloooowww progress). I am a convert to Orthodoxy (@13 years ago) from a RC and Episcopal background. I'm also homeschooling four of our five (baby is too young) children.

    Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I enjoyed roaming around your blog this afternoon!

  2. Matushka, I am honored. I just found your blog the other day. You make the most beautiful handcrafts! So glad to have "met" you!!